June 28th

two months... it seems like forever....

...she had the prettiest green eyes and sweet smile. And the sweetest way of saying, love you momma. When she knew her daddy was teasing her she would say "daaad..." Again in a such sweet voice, it always made us laugh

A dream

Leaving this one unedited as I typed it into my Blackberry as soon as I woke up from my dream.

I had a dream… 105 pm

I had to get up to writ this dow so I would not forget…

Rachel had been in the hospital for three dyas… we wer telling eh rgoodbye onle last time…. The nurse (karne chcker from walmart) felt her move her hand and herd her moan she was waking up… we were all with her. She was beautiful and whole, like nothing had ever happened tp her, she was alert and telling us all how much she loved us… she told us that she thought she had died. People there, the walls, denny pop, pastor, neale, glynis chris daddy, carrie, boo, steve, cathy etc...

I think it is her way of telling me from heaven she is ok!!!! She loves us!!!

Thank you god for this most beautiful dream!!!! I saw her beautiful face and she talked to me!!!! She told me she loved met! Thank you jesus!!!

With Hope

A song written by Steven 10 years ago for a family that lost a child. It was sang at Maria Chapman's funeral, what a testimony of faith shown by the Chapman family, the words minister to me so...

thought I would share...

This is not at all how
We thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We had so many dreams
And now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you, but ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
(There's a place by God's grace)
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again

And never have I known
Anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father's smile and say well done
And I imagine you
Where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now you're home
And now you're free, and ...

We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true, so ...

We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope

May 28th

In tears today... I decided that on the 28th of the month I am going to share a memory of Rachel... looks like I have some catching up to do... Please feel free to share with me by adding your comments at the end of this blog...

It's been one month since Rachel went home to be with Jesus. We still miss her soooooo......

Even though I was travelling this year, Rachel and I had some really sweet times... In Missouri we saw, the Arch, the great Mississippi, Anheuser Busch plant, Grease the musical, Carrie even took her to OU. Probably my favorite memory of our travels was our trip to Washington DC. We had been walking, walking and walking, she was TIRED! We got to the Vietnam War Memorial, after looking through a book of names she looked at the wall and said, "now what's that wall thingy?" I knew that it was time to move on....

I am thankful

by Rachel Fulenwider

There are many things I am thankful for but only three stand out to me.
First, I am thankful for technology. Technology is not just the things that runon electricity. It's everything. We would still be in the Stone Ages if it weren't for it. I would not want to be in the Stone Ages. I wouldn't have my straightener, (which broke), computer, phone and music. Technology helps understand the world better. It gives us things to enjoy in our life. You can't get ever get bored with all the technology we have now. I am so thankful to have it.
Second, I am thankful for money. shopping, and food. I love food. I love energy drinks, candy, and all the stuff that is bad for you. Yeah, I like the occasional broccoli or peas, but not nearly as much as junk food. I could not survive without my favorite foods. If I didn't have Red Bulls or Sobe Adrenalines would be dead as a doornail. They give me my energy. I am also really thankful for shopping. Shopping is the time to hang out with friends and just have fun. You go shopping to pamper yourself. I love everything about shopping. OK. Now, I may be really thankful for the others, but not as much as money. I couldn't do the other things without money. I may not always have a lot of it, but when I do spend it the second I get. I can't save money. It's not my thing.
Finally, I am most thankful for God, family and friends. We would not be alive if it weren't for God. If it weren't for him, we would not have anything to be thankful for. He created family for a reason. Family is there to support you. They are with you from the beginning to the end. They will never forsake you. I wouldn't know what to do without my family. Friends are there when you need a break from things. Good friends will laugh, cry, act stupid or do anything with you. When I see everyone around me fighting with their friends, saying mean things, or even breaking friendships. I know how lucky I am to have my friends.
You may not have a lot, but the most important thing is to be thankful. Don't be jealous. Be thankful for what you have. First and foremost be thankful that you are alive. Be thankful for who you have not necessarily for what you have.

letter written to us in 2006, by Rachel

Dear mom and dad,

First of all I want to say thank you. And that I am really lucky to have you as my parents. You have always taken care of me. When I need something you always get it for me even if it means you have to sacrifice something in return. You are always there cheering me on in any sport. When Andrew was having problems you didn't give up on him. You worked hard to keep us a family. You made hard decisions. In the end, it all worked out. I have been blessed by God to have christian parents. Ya'll have raised me in a christian home and have kept me in church. You have been great parents. There is not enough words to describe it. Thank you.

love you

Mother's Day 2008

Mother's Day 2008…

We are reminding ourselves to thank Him for blessing us with our precious Rachel for 15 years & Andrew. She blessed us beyond measure and continues to do so even in her absence. Oh how He loves us!